Single Since Birth

A lot of people are wondering why i'm still single at my age.or why i had never had a boyfriend before.some would even reach the point of doubting my sexuality. my sister's housemate, who i used to exchange text messages with, even asked her if i am a lesbian.as if all girls who had never had a boyfriend are lesbians or its our fault that we are single. luckily, i gave up texting him, coz aside from being senseless, i don't like the way he jokes about me a lot, and when its my turn to joke about him, all of a sudden he becomes sensitive and get offended... boys...

I can't say that i'm single by choice.well, maybe i am, because i have a habit of ignoring, to the point of being rude, some boys who i feel are "flirting" with me(well, that's because i don't like them,haha). i have the tendency to steer away from boys(that i don't like) whenever i hear some "talks" about the both of us. this is when i don't like them. but when i like a boy, i stick with him, talk to him a lot, try to know things about him. typical stuff girls do. and it ends there. when i feel that he's starting to feel uneasy, i just stop and let him go. then, life goes back to normal.

once i got a little too close with a guy. honestly, he's not my type, but i went on with our so-called "special friendship" because i'm bored and i need someone to talk to. but it ended up badly, because we got too close for comfort, and it got so complicated i just let him go. he once told me he loves me, but i didn't believe him because he has a girlfriend at that time. them i learned that they broke up right after our "relationship" ended. i want to ask him why he broke up with her,and if he ever loved me, but i realized that whatever his answer will be, it wouldn't change anything. i don't want him back, neither do i want him to be my boyfriend, but i think his answer would have boosted my ego. but i don't have the guts to ask him. and right now, i don't care whatever his answer will be.

i enjoy being single. i can do whatever i want without asking for someone else 's permission. i can go out with almost anybody, without anyone getting jealous or angry. i can play football with the guys, i can stay out late and i can go wherever i want, without worrying that someone out there is wondering where i am, waiting for me to call.

i'm not saying that i want to be single forever. i also want to have someone to build a family with. someone i can grow old with. but i can wait until that someone comes. and when he comes, i know he is worth the wait.